...::: i dont understand the world that i live in :::...

2006-09-26T18:04:00.000+08:00

hellos ^^. this is gonna be my last post for this blog, cos i gt a new url. so whoever sees this if u linked me b4, pls change the link to . thx! thats my new blog haha. bye everyone!

2006-09-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

1st lesson english...
so boring....about a comprehension on sherpas
then summary...
so many points! hw can fit into 115 words????
then....then...
science
go lab and do the last practical of the yr
T.T so sad. should have more practicals haha
then yujia wrote SOMETHING on the table
using a rubber
steph very very angry
then we realise cannot rub off
hahahahahhahahaha
then recess.
nothing much to say
just eat and talk
nothing much happened
no one choked on coffee XD
then CE
mr ng give us our certs
then tell us its the last lesson we will EVER HAVE
so sad.
cos nxt yr no CE....
awwww
finish up my flash game
not bad laa.....i hope
then go back to class for hist lesson
isnt one dose of mrs lowe enough????
revise most of the chapters...
show us the format of the paper
oh and tell us that she's disapointed in us =p
then chinese
shen lao shi tell us gt pao dao and ting xie
not to mention oral after school T.T
1st pao dao.
nv bring the july one so borrow frm angie
THKU!!! *to angie XD*
thennn....then...
ting xie
okok laa.... nt much to say
finished learning...during history XD
then kelicia hear jing huang wrong.
she hear jing gang XD
*shouldnt laugh...shouldnt laugh...i heard the same thing ><*
then in the middle of the ting xie when every1 writing the zao ju,
i lean over to minying borrow eraser frm her.
then i saw a black thingy fly in
hey
its a human instinct to duck okay???
by then the whole class realise its a bird liao
duno hw it flew in though XD
it flew around....and around...and around...
and then it crashed into our 1/5 chain thingy
now its lop-sided liao haha
then fly across the class, to the window there
and then
CRASH
it banged into the window
poor thing
it must have thought there was no glass there
then everyone in that row duck
flew to the back of the class
flew back to the front
and finally out the door
then shen lao shi say its a sign of good luck or something
everyone blur blur duno wad she saying
after ting xie she told us
we all didnt get it for a while
then everyone realise the punchline le then laugh
class dismiss
around 14 ppl stay back for oral [chinese]
practice and practice
one by one every1 go out
so scary cos im the last one left ><
then go home
revise and cram
cram and revise
then eat dinner...
cram some more
then come write this post ^^

2006-09-24T21:56:00.000+08:00

too many tags to reply to...
so reply them here!
[di]
HI!!!! u so long nv maple ler...gd luk for ur EOYs...eh, no. for u is PSLE haha. must study hard k? cya soon~
[yujiia]
u very impatient leh...oso very FORGETFUL LOL. i told u i change ler skin then do all the quizes....(applies to syl's oso =D) dun worry la...i will do de lols. THEN I WILL SABO U BACK AHAHAHA!!!!~
[sylvia x2]
lols. still duno what to do? then....LET THINGS BE! dun worry too much...u noe that if u frown too much u will get alot of wrinkles when u get older haha. *and dont worry, i forgive u ler ^^*
[georgia]
heyy....calm down la....dun get so fired up....and if u remember, bastards only apply to GUYS u noe =p and dont hold a grudge la...i didnt. if i did i wouldnt survive to tis day XD
[evangeline]
HELLO!!!! long time nv see u ler haha. hw is aimee meii meii? wish u both gd luck for EOYs!
[phyllis]
hahas. u very very fast at replying tags leh XD i tag u in the morn then u reply on same day lols...how do u do it??? link me k?
[yujiia]
yes yes yes yes....i will do laa....after eoys k??? so kam chiong...lols

2006-09-23T17:44:00.000+08:00

[[oh haha....]]
u people think its funny isit?
really?
hmm. okay
i can accept that.
jokes are ment to be funny
that wasnt a joke
that was as far from a joke as u can get
oh yes...
3 words
yes...really funny
so funny im crying
who knows
i just might die laughing you know
wouldnt so bad if that happened
people at my funeral could be like,
she died happy
its really nice to leave a legacy with your name
who knows
you to might leave another leagcy in the book right next to mine
"the world's most professional pranksters"
hmm. it does have a nice ring to it.
maybe you were made for it
i wouldnt know
but it must have taken alot of thought to plot this one
especially one of them
twice you know
i better watch out
people always like the phrase "third time lucky"
i hope i will never see the 3rd
two is enough.
some people bite the hand that feeds them. or at least treats them well
too bad. they will just have to learn

2006-09-17T20:36:00.000+08:00

[[* a sad story ]]

it must hurt

both of u

i only know one of u

bt im sure it must hurt u both

even if i dont know the full story

maybe its just a judgement

a biased judgement

maybe its no biased

maybe its the truth

and everyone's scared of the truth

this time

i KNOW the truth will hurt

and it wont hurt just one person

it will KILL

again, kill more than 1 person

its like a massacre

innocent lives will bt lost

maybe even i will die

i shouldnt have gotten tangled up

in this web of lies

lies, deciet, disdain and...and...cruelty

i have a secret that cant be let out,

or a war will start.

i dont like wars

no one does

i hope

this war would be a silent one.

with no physical ammunition

only a battle of words

emotions

which will all be twisted around

and around and around

to make some thing incomeprehensible

that is gonna hurt someone even more

i think the war has already started

without one party even knowing it

he/she's been bombed with missles, grenades

but he's s/she's too innocent to know it

pity.

only reccently he realised

and he/she charge

maybe thats what is right

i wouldnt know

im not in this war

this war is not for me to fight

2006-09-12T21:09:00.000+08:00

[[ haha....how cold ]]

when people say 'haha'

i alwats wonder if they really mean it

its so easy to just type "haha"

even when ur sad

u can just type "haha"

even when ur sad.

takes no effort whatsoever

it can mask ur emotions if thats wad u wanna do

but u can totally tell when ppl are doing so

they sound insincere

but even though everyone can tell

other ppl still try to

because they're scared

sometimes scared of their own emotions

sometimes just scared of the truth

the scary, unpredictible truth inside them

because they all know that the truth hurts

sometimes it hurts them

sometimes it hurts those who are close to them

sometimes it hurts those who are invisible to them

of course

the truth doesnt ALWAYS hurt

sometimes it makes people smile or laugh

sometimes its better for the truth to come out

because deep inside,

everyone noes that the longer u keep the truth inside you,

especailly if its a truth that u noe will hurt others deeply

its better for it to come out

to let people know

but after saying all that i still cant tell you...

im not strong enough

im so sorry...

2006-09-09T08:06:00.000+08:00

i couldnt sleep anymore

so got up turned on the com

log on 2 msn to look for someone to talk 2

no one.

only geo who had her status as

"away"

i wish i could be "away" too

left with a mound of homework

[most of which is unexpectedly given on thurs]

and revision 2 do

looked at the 'hill'

felt more alone than ever

nothing to blog about ><

just felt like doing something

to get my mind off the thinking

cos the thinking [and thinking and thinking]

is making my head hurt

maybe the things are just 2 complex

or maybe i just dont want to face the truth

2006-08-28T17:42:00.000+08:00

wheee~
just linked all the 6c ppl i could find
so happy
also found the CORRECT link 4 our 6c blog
finally.
after months of trying to find it
then i *unintentionally* found it @ chooi's blog
yay. can link it nw.
bt whats the freaking password and user???
i wan blog on it too!
oh well
nvm.
just go ask them this thurs
cant wait!
get 2 see every1 again hehe
*>*>*>*>*>*>*>*>*>*>*>*>*>*>*
2day average, maths just do corrections and mark the hwk
gt so many wrong T.T
nvm. just that must revise more
then do drawing of perpendicular lines or whatever its called
*hw come when i try it looks out of shape but when brindha tries it looks PERFECT???*
~and yes we used the same method~
then...then...oh. science
go thru SPA assessment wst
4/6. darn.
should have written the units in the heading of table....
then recess. average recess so nth 2 say abt it
then CE we work on the flash game.
i finish mine but name the file wrong so need 2 re-do the file name
argh. so ma fan
then 2 hrs of horror- history and english
its not the subjects that is boring
its the teacher
*will not continue on this topic or u will see some swearing that is not appropreate for ppl of all age groups*
duno y during the lesson start talking about star signs
im a gemini :)
then found out brindha oso gemini!
my fellow gemini sis!!!
lols. yes i noe im abit high hehe
then....end of sch
take bus
go home
do maths
end up at the com posting.
gotta go for dinner.
cya!
*and 2 all olgc-ians, c u on thurs!~*

2006-08-19T09:43:00.000+08:00

its not fair
just bcause i didnt come ytd dosent mean u shouldnt tell me

i have been cheated of my time and 45 cents.

2006-08-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

todae maths test sure die le......

aiya every1 oso die lar hehe

like jo ann say,

1/5 united we stand united we fall

hahas

the lucas say

i tot is united we stand seperate we fall?

laughed even more

then go sit wif adeline&nicole

read powerpuff book

then recess go help atc sell tickets

give out fliers 2 ppl i dun even noe...

abit paiseh

then home ec all the way!!!

yay home ec rawks ^^

cooked shepards' pie.

tasted so nice...

but too full so me and minying cannot finish lols

then go for chang wen shuo duan

ok ok la...

then dun feel like eating so go back class

see reg c, yujia and jo ann writing 1/5 family tree

i nt in sao ask reg stuff me in sumwhere

then she put me as kavin's wife

-.-"

give me 1mil(us) i oso dun wan

lols

no offence hehe

then...go wif cheryl run 2.4....again

dont wanna talk abt it.

felt terrible

cried

went to drama

saw the play

(for those ppl who neva c...MUST GO SEE!!!! ITS WORTH IT!!!)

*just the dancing alone is worth the $4 lols*

then... mrs kamal fed up wif us

give us 10min break

go look out the mps window

see netball, sjab, girl guides

go see what im assigned 2

found out im SM(stage manager)

oh well. at least dun need act hehe

then....go home

tired le.

going 2 sleep

*wish every 1 gd luck for common tests!!!*

2006-08-10T17:19:00.000+08:00

lonely

a feeling of emptyness.

sadness

of being alone in this big world

feeling like there is no one

no one to stand with you

beside you to guide you

to be lost in a sea of people

but feel that emptyness wash over you again

to not know what to do

to not know what is right

to feel disgouraged

to have an aching 'sensation'

deep in your heart

to feel stranggely calm,

quiet,

in ways that are not right

to feel that something is missing,

like a piece of the puzzle gone,

to keep you from seeing the big pucture

a feeling that might not be bad,

it might keep you in deep thought

while the lonelyness washes over you all over again

~and YES!!! i noe it sucks XD~

2006-07-25T21:19:00.000+08:00

2dae science practicals so fun

i liked the magnesium experiment cause it looked so cool ^^
then was...um...oh ya.ENGLISH
wanna sleep...bt cant. cause mrs low right infront of me.
and oso cause need 2 write letter.
BORING!!!
(and who says we're good samanitarians? ;)
then recess...
like any other recess so nth 2 say abt it.
next lesson--maths.
the evil subject hahas
started on new topic...geometry.
1 of the most hatred of all maths topics,
cause need LOOOONNNGGGG explanations
eww
then music. well, nt really
cause ms Lau nv come,
so free period WHEEEE!!!
then was CME...more like CI this time...
mrs chua change all our places.
FINALLY after 2 and 1/2 terms,
me siying and vivi seperated,
well...
at least i seperated from vivi and siying
at first siying so happy cause dun need see vivi any more (no offence)
then at last mrs chua decided 2 put vivi and siying TOGETHER!!!
ahahahhahahahahahahahahah....
so funny
now i sitting more back le
so happy
more freedom =p

but she still wont forgive me....
so sad...
its my fault but....
i already said i was sorry....

i noe i made a mistake le...
pls 4give me....

2006-07-22T11:58:00.000+08:00

class photo!!!!(of those who wore the traditional outfit.)

me and cheng ling on racial harmony dae!!!!

so fun yesterdae

alot of ppl in 1/5 wore ethinic outfit ytd

hope we win the contest of the class of ppl who wore the most traditional outfits!!!!!

1/5 2006 rox~!!!

2006-07-11T20:36:00.000+08:00

tired like hell
so so so so so so tired...
2dae maths remedial till 3pm+
come home almost 5pm le
cause gotta top up ez-link
(almost no $$$ le =x)

****
tml gt zuo ye and ting xie pass up.....
yeah
i noe ting xie cant really pass up de....
bt u gt my point -.-"
dont u?
the "god" teacher think we so damn smart,
efficent,
guai (well behaved)
hahahahahahaha.....
yeah
we're all that

YEAH RIGHT!!!!!!~
im gonna fail le....
ahhhhh
so fustrated
so sian of learning and learning and learning....

oh well
at least this wk no atc^^
WHEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!~
so happy
can come home earlier and rest
juz thinking abt it make me smile =)
but....
still gt the rest of the wk 2 go thru b4 that...
oh well
cant have everything
thats how it works
at least gt ppl around me going thru the same stuffs

oh ya
so angry
me sylvia jie and chengling jie and cheryl wan go watch the teacher's performance on fridae nite @ esplanade
bt....
me and my 2 jies came 2 l8 =(
CHERYL BOUGHT THE LAST FREAKING TICKET!!!!!!!!!
.....
so angry
nvm
nt her[cheryl] fault
so....
its the ticketing booth's fault lol.
no la
no one's fault
sad

cant blame any1 =p

2006-07-09T21:35:00.001+08:00

ahhh.
now chinese tchr change le.... she so strict compared 2 ms tan
so sad....
i miss her. i think all the other ppl in the class oso miss her.
even though shen lao shi abt same age as her[ms tan]she so diff....
( i use shen lao shi instead of eng name cause she tell us 2 name duno which 1 2 use =/)
she nt shen as in goddess
she shen as in shen jin bing( crazy)
ya...
the more i think abt it the more i think im rite

last fri atc kinda boring
oso kinda fun cause we all gt abit of freedom
1st we stay art room pain the blocks 4 the performance
paint till all our shirts and pants stained wif paint....
even our faces a little ^^
then after pain finish so bored.
nth 2 do
so we go MPS clean the floor
tchr keep "directing" us 2 diff points of the room 2 clean....
keep us frm toking.
so evil
bt at least get 2 enjoy air-con ^^
and can tok abit 2 every1
so nt so bad
oh ya
and oso gt music ;)
still...
wish no stc nxt wk
wish can go home rest
sleep
play maple
go msn
all that crap we wanna do
bt will teachers allow?

hmm

~NO~
sigh
oh well
gt ppl 2 chi ku wif me :)
haha
i so evil ^^

2006-07-09T21:35:00.000+08:00

2006-06-19T20:41:00.001+08:00

*sigh....* so bored.
finishing all of the homework, the massive pile is finally almost gone >.<
no school, so almost no one 2 talk 2,
no one for companionship
except thru the phone
(no brothers or sisters either in case u were wondering)
only the phone and the computer.
no "old-fasioned" face 2 face talking wif frens,
both frm anderson and chij.
(yea, so i saw tracy,rae and georgia some time ago, but that seams like a DECADE ago
i hate 2 b the 1st person in this world 2 actually be recoreded as "DIED from boreom"
gotta find SOMETHING 2 do......

2006-06-19T20:41:00.000+08:00

2006-06-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

yesterdae went wif tracy rae and georgia 2 J8 4 x-men 3 movie
so fun :) the movie damn nice lol.
geo said she could watch it again haha.
after movie went 2 take neoprints.
and more neoprints
and more neoprints :)
1 of them so funny.
the place where we had 2 stand was a movable platform that could go up and down
but it wasnt controled by us
so every 1 or 2 shots we would start 2 move up( real slowly )
but once or twice it went really fast so we were like,
"we're going up arnt we? :) "
ahh
i missed them so much
then i got to c them again. so happy :)
but now i miss them again :(
lol, so confused dunno 2 laugh or cry haha.
maybe there are mutants in this world......

oh crap.
im juz thinking 2 much again:)

2006-06-07T09:46:00.000+08:00

ahhhh!!! i feel guilty 4 not posting 4 so long :) but i've been buys so pls forgive me. 2day minying, yujia, zhixin r going 2 come over and do natas and history project. that toot history project!!!!! bcause it was drawing of lots 2 pick the subject for the project, we (ok, fine *I*) picked teh toughest one cause it was the one with the most requirements :( but i so tired..... wanna go back 2 sleep....... but my room's in a mess. i never bothered 2 clean it on a regular basis :) too lazy haha. gotta clean it b4 going out. i better stop b4 i tok more crap :)

alone

2006-06-02T20:14:00.000+08:00

i havent seen my pri sch frens 4 so long....i miss them. but even if i do c them, will it still b the same? we all went diff sec schs, diff CCA, everything is different. maybe even us. maybe we've changed so much that even if we meet again it wont b the same. i'll never know. mii birthdae is in a wk's time, but not lyk last yr.... this time no one 2 celebrate wif :( pric sch frens r out of country, busy or no time. sec sch frens hav cca and oso no time. maybe the onli thing they have in common is no time haha. so many ppl in this world, surrounding me..... but i still feel so alone....

2006-05-30T19:59:00.000+08:00

i ripped this quiz frm angie's blog. thought it would b fun 2 try out =D
can you name 21 people you can think of the top of your head?Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people.random order!
1. Rae
2.Yu Jia
3.Min Ying
4.Cheng Ling
5.Lucas
6. Cheryl
7.Zhi Xin
8. Teng Hong
9. Angie
10. Yong Xiang
11.Vivegan
12. Harris
13. Jien Nee
14. Sylvia
15.Min Yi
16. Adeline
17.Tracy
18. Si Ying
19. Geraldine
20.Aik Meng
21. Carmina
**~**~**~**~**~**~**
how did u meet 10?
uh... same class. and frisbee
wad would u do if u neva met 6?
neva would have known that "toot" could b used in so many scentences. haha
wad would u do if 19 & 16 dated?
hello??? they're both girlz. and they're not les. trust me
have u ever seen 13 cry?
4got haha. sry
would 4 & 12 make a gd couple?
omg. never thought about that.haha. maybe. maybe not =D
would 1 & 2 make a gd couple?
uh....both not les. and they dunno each other ny way
wats 3's best quality?
Min Ying? nice, friendly, cute and damn hard working haha.
describe 8
Teng Hong ar.... hmm.... slightly "vertically challenged" in SJAB and.... oh yes. LOVES counterstrike :)
is 15 attractive?
ya. tall, quite chio. but a little on the siao side
tell me sumthing abt 17
tracy? camera shy, likes popcorn, dosent like basketball, ADORES dogs =D
wats 7's fave colour?
dunno. never asked her. but will ask the next time i c her.
wad would u do if 1 confessed that he/she liked u?
wont happen in this life time. im 1000000% sure that she's straight. not les. really.
when was the last time u talked 2 19?
geraldine? uh.... last friday i think. besides, who remembers the last time u talk 2 sum 1???
wat grade is 16 in?
same as me lor. sec 1
would u eva date 11?
VIVEGAN???? siao ar? no lar. only like him as fren. really. nothing else.
wats 5's fave music?
dunno. how am i supposed 2 noe???
would u eva wanna b in a serious relationship wif 21?
she's a GIRL!!! and not a les. derfinitly. after all, she likes billy haha.
where does 18 live?
dunno. never asked cause never needed 2 noe wat.
wat do u think abt 20?
aik meng? dunno. a little sick in the head i guess.
wats the best ting abt 2?
yu jia ar.... friendly, sweet and will always help u if u need=D
wat do u wanna tell 9 rite now?
angie...hmm...oh yea. i'll get u the staff really soon!!!! stop pestering me ;)
how did u meet 15?
Drama lor. diff class wat
r u gonna noe 1 4eva?
YES!!!! she's 1 of my best frens and likes lots stuff that i like!!!!
*~~~###~~~###~~~###~~~###~~~###~~~###~~~###~~~###~~~###~~~###~~~*

2006-05-27T16:38:00.000+08:00

that toot dentist gave me 2 much of that stupid numbing stuff ( both the cream and the jab) so now i cant tok well....damnit. can talk on the phone or any thing. so can only go MSN and blog. darn.
the teachers gave us so much hw 2 do.... a mt everest sized pile. maybe bigger. dunno. and so much i-learn stuff oso. and paper/worksheet stuff. and Assment bk stuff. and everything else. sigh. a pile of homework never 2 b cleared....

12 days 2 b-dae :)

saying gd bye.....

2006-05-26T15:37:00.000+08:00

so sad. ms hu and ms tan are leaving 2dae.... we had a farewell party 4 them after sch =) every1 brought SO much food that we couldnt finish it all. haha. then we had waterbombs!!!! we threw @ the teachers :) so fun. ms tan got the most wet and had 2 change into our sch PE shorts. she looked so cute :) not like a teacher at all really =)
but still..... so sad... they were our faveourite teachers. and now they're gone. by the time they graduate frm NIE its gonna b 5 yrs frm now! we would have graduated by then!!!! nvm, at least we can still contact them. ms tan has msn and blog :)
how can u b happy and sad at the same time?

June hols!!!

2006-05-25T20:10:00.000+08:00

yay!!! tml is the last dae of sch!!! so happy that dun need 2 wake up so early @ the crack of dawn in the morning 5 days a week!!! :) b-dae oso coming very soon. frm 2 dae is 14 days ( only!!!!!) i miss my olgc frens....havent seen them 4 so long.... they neva on msn or ny thing. aiyo. so lonely in a world of ppl. how can it be?